Wednesday, February 16, 2011

pictures

we got our pictures that the photographer took from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep organization. here are some of them...

holding our rings...

Sophia's foot prints in AJ's bible... (we didn't notice this until after, but it is right beside the verse that says "your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path" psalm 119:105)




i can't get enough of her full body pictures. i adore her cute little arms and legs.



getting all washed up by her daddy.

today i pretty much have cried all day. i cried going into work for a meeting (because last time i was going in to work i was pregnant). i cried when we were buying a truck (i'm not quite sure why i cried here). i cried when i got these pictures (because i miss my cute little peanut and because i didn't feel like they took enough pictures- i don't think any mother in this situation would ever say any amount of pictures is enough). and i cried in between (just because). yep. that sums up my day... wonderful. needless to say- not going back to work this week.

i also would like to say- when i say that i am going on a trip and then people say i am lucky to be going to cancun i wanna scream. i am not lucky. i would rather not go on vacation for this reason EVER. i would rather not have to be taking this trip to regroup and get away to heal for some time. i know that no one means anything bad by it. i am just emotional right now and not being very tolerable of anyone's good intentions. if you have said this- please don't feel bad. i just would prefer not to hear it anymore. i am running out of kind responses. thank you for being understanding.

please pray for us this weekend- as we are probably going to pick up Sophia's ashes and go spread them. i am ready for this part of stuff to be over. which sounds horrible, but it's hard to keep having to face this kind of stuff. so i would rather face it and then go on our trip and come back with all of those kind of things behind us.

-tristen



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9 comments:

  1. LauraFebruary 16, 2011 at 9:06 PM

    praying for you tonight....rest well sweet mama.

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  2. AnonymousFebruary 17, 2011 at 1:40 AM

    your daughter is absolutely gorgeous. thank you for sharing these pictures with us. i love her little legs and her precious face....everything about her!

    i'm sorry that people are making such comments about the vacation. i think it's admirable that you have managed to come back with kind responses.

    praying for you and your family. i pray that your heart manages to heal. Sophia is with her heavenly Father, and you will see her again. <3

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  3. NicoleFebruary 17, 2011 at 5:25 AM

    She's beautiful! Her proportions remind me a lot of Maddy. Still praying for your family xox

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  4. The Queen of KrinkelandFebruary 17, 2011 at 1:05 PM

    You have a gorgeous daughter. Just beautiful.

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  5. GayleFebruary 19, 2011 at 10:21 AM

    Thank you for sharing these with us. I have been hoping to see them.

    She is a little darling. No, there can never be enough photos, can there?

    I'll be praying for your journey this weekend.
    Love you both.

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  6. AnonymousFebruary 20, 2011 at 7:03 AM

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOufqWodFNo

    this song has helped me out through a lot. it's called "held" by natalie grant. i listened to it recently and i thought of your beautiful family. <3

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  7. SueFebruary 20, 2011 at 7:10 AM

    Praying that you will feel God's arms holding you, His hands wiping away your tears, and His promise of eternity comforting & filling your very being from the tips of your toes to the top of your head. Praying that He will fill and heal the hole in your hearts...

    As you trust your beautiful Sophia to His loving care, He will prepare you to re-enter your world of busy-ness and responsibilities...wounded, but encouraged, strengthened, and with peace.

    Grateful, ever so grateful, that you will see her again,
    Sue

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  8. AnonymousFebruary 25, 2011 at 10:45 AM

    We love you! These photos are absolutely precious, so thank you for sharing them with everyone. We continue to pray for you guys daily.

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  9. KerriJuly 23, 2011 at 1:26 PM

    Such beautiful pictures! I stumbled upon your blog and have read your story, I am so sorry for your loss! I know you will see your sweet Sophia again, May God bless you until that time.

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