well we made through Sophia's 2nd birthday. i cannot believe it has been 2 years since we held her and kissed her sweet little little toes. man i miss those cute little toes. her brother is so much more bigger. and his toes are huge compared to hers. i love seeing their footprints next to each other and remembering how sweet and small she was. she will always be our sweet little girl and we are so thankful for the time we got with her.
it was kind of a weird birthday weekend, as we had a wedding in chicago, but aj had to stay back in colorado to work. so we spent the day with my mom and step dad hanging out until the wedding. then my little man was my date. i thought the wedding was going to be hard (that whole seeing someone walk down the aisle and realizing i would never get to see her do that), but it wasn't. the blessing is that it was an indian wedding- so it wasn't that typical white dress walking down an aisle kind of scene. i was so mesmerized at all the ceremonial things happening that i didn't stop to think about anything else.
it was hard being apart from aj, mostly because it was just me to take care of B, so i didn't have any time to sit on a couch and cry a little. that lil guy kept me busy and fairly distracted. instead, i had a little "i miss my daughter" cryfest in my car earlier that week while driving. honestly i was more brought to tears by all the wonderful things people did to remember sophia. it seriously takes my breath away the amazing people in our life.
my friend abby- lit a candle on a cupcake i gave her (this is the same kind we are taking up to her this weekend to where she is scattered)
my friend evangeline's daughter- wore her sophia rose and party dress to celebrate.
little brother blake and i made her this card.
the family i was staying with (maryellen and jim) had this waiting on the night table for me.
and of course- who could be sad for long, when we have this little blessing to remind us that life moves forward and that God had good things in store for us. a rainbow after the storm. he is such a joy and helps ease our pain. although he is not her, he is a baby to hold and hug and tell all about the one who came before him. the one who taught us how to be parents and taught us how to love despite the pain that would come. the one who will always have a big place in our hearts no matter how small she was.
happy birthday darling.
-mommy, daddy and brother