we got our pictures that the photographer took from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep organization. here are some of them...
holding our rings...
Sophia's foot prints in AJ's bible... (we didn't notice this until after, but it is right beside the verse that says "your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path" psalm 119:105)
i can't get enough of her full body pictures. i adore her cute little arms and legs.
getting all washed up by her daddy.
today i pretty much have cried all day. i cried going into work for a meeting (because last time i was going in to work i was pregnant). i cried when we were buying a truck (i'm not quite sure why i cried here). i cried when i got these pictures (because i miss my cute little peanut and because i didn't feel like they took enough pictures- i don't think any mother in this situation would ever say any amount of pictures is enough). and i cried in between (just because). yep. that sums up my day... wonderful. needless to say- not going back to work this week.
i also would like to say- when i say that i am going on a trip and then people say i am lucky to be going to cancun i wanna scream. i am not lucky. i would rather not go on vacation for this reason EVER. i would rather not have to be taking this trip to regroup and get away to heal for some time. i know that no one means anything bad by it. i am just emotional right now and not being very tolerable of anyone's good intentions. if you have said this- please don't feel bad. i just would prefer not to hear it anymore. i am running out of kind responses. thank you for being understanding.
please pray for us this weekend- as we are probably going to pick up Sophia's ashes and go spread them. i am ready for this part of stuff to be over. which sounds horrible, but it's hard to keep having to face this kind of stuff. so i would rather face it and then go on our trip and come back with all of those kind of things behind us.