1 year ago

1 year ago today we found out the news that not only were we going to have a little girl... but that we were going to probably lose her. our tears and pain on this day were so big and painful. the last year, hands down, has been the hardest of my life.

anyone that has ever found out their baby had anything wrong with them remembers that day and that pain. the day were those dreams that everyone has when they get pregnant of having a healthy little baby are crushed and stolen from you.  they are replaced with a broken heart and a fear that will take a lot more than 9 months to fix.

last year on this day i cried in a way i didn't know i could. i also prayed in a way i didn't know i could. what a year this has been. the next 4 months would be the longest and somehow shortest of my life. i can't believe we are only 4 months away from it being a year all ready.

praying for peace today. praying for the other people in the world that have gotten the worst news of their life this week. praying i never get news like that again. needless to say, God and I are in talks this morning....

(ps- my mom is pretty great.... she knew this week has been a hard one emotionally and sent us some flowers, which was perfect timing. i heart her. i think i will keep her.)